In February I realized that staying in Harmon was killing me. I couldn’t eat. I felt like I couldn’t breathe. Sleep was impossible. Each day my ability to concentrate was fading. Each way I turned was a constant reminder of the pain that refused to fade.
And I had to concentrate. I had to remember.
When I walked down the main street of town to my shop people stared and whispered. Even people I didn’t know began to watch me as they noticed the locals staring.
I could imagine the questions they were asking in their minds.
“Who is that woman?” “Why are people watching her so closely?” “What has she done?”
What had I done?
I fell in love. I moved back to my hometown with my new husband. I opened a book shop which had been a lifelong dream.
I killed my husband.
No!
How could that be the truth? I loved Chase. I loved him still. But Chase was dead. Dead to the world, dead to me. Dead to the life we tried to build together.

This is a list of guidelines from Aram Mika. He was a man who worked for my company. He passed away a couple of years ago. Everyone liked him. He was only 50 something. I think he has some very good points.

11 Guidelines for Leadership

1. Practice a single standard of courtesy.
2. Focus on making your team, your people vibrantly successful.
3. Never attribute to malice that which may be explained by ignorance or happenstance.
4. You need not compromise civility to be effective.
5. Stay on the high road.
6. Treat every job as if you will be there for the rest of your life.
7. Embrace the requisites for senior leadership.
8. Shamelessly assimilate outstanding traits of others.
9. Think of your job in terms of three numbers:
a. Percentage of time ecstatic
b. Percentage of time satisfied
c. Percentage of time dissatisfied
10. Discard woulda, coulda, shoulda.
11. Enjoy humanity.

Probably these are 11 guidelines for Life itself.

I began this thought in October 2006


Ethics Principles

Honesty
To be truthful in all of our endeavors, and to be honest and forthright with one another and with our neighbors, friends, and Church members

Integrity
To say what we mean, to deliver what we promise, and to stand for what is right.

Respect
To treat one another with dignity and fairness, and to appreciate our differences and our individual uniqueness

Trust
To build confidence through teamwork and open candid communication.

Responsibility
To take responsibility for our actions, and to speak up – without fear of retribution – and report concerns in the home, including violations of laws, regulations and family policies, and seek clarification and guidance whenever there is doubt

Citizenship
To obey all the laws of our Family, the Church, and the United States and other areas in which we participate and to do our part to make the communities in which we live and work better

This was written on October 3, 2006

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I have spent considerable time this week feeling sorrow for the parents of innocent children who have been murdered by crazy people. I want to do something about it. The only thing I can think of is to make my part of the world a better place by speaking up about morals and taking a stand against evil. I am very anxious to go on some missions. I think we can do some good in those areas. In fact, over the last few months I have been dissatisfied with what I am doing to make an impact on the world to make it a better place. I feel a need to reach out to others and help them.
There are alot of things I can do right now. I can walk for the Cure (breast cancer). I can donate to places who make Thanksgiving meals for the homeless. I can go to the Denver Shelter to help serve. I think I need something beyond teaching a lesson in RS once a month and going to the temple twice a month.